It was 6:30AM and my alarm was blaring.
One look out my window confirmed exactly what I already knew… I did not want to do life today.
It was pitch-black outside and I knew that the second I slipped out from under my covers I would be welcomed by cold hard-wood floors and a mopey family.
I can’t say that I blame my family for being a little sad… to be honest, I didn’t want me to leave either!
But, I put on my big-girl pants, finished packing my stuff, and jumped in the car.
I was headed, yet again, to the ever-lovely ice park commonly referred to as Minnesota.
I love flying. I love travel. I love the window-seat. I love watching the clouds fade away under my seat as I rise 10’s of thousands of feet into the atmosphere. But today? I didn’t love any of it.
Even as I sit here typing this, waiting on the airport staff to finish prepping my plane for take-off, I know in my heart that I don’t want to get on that plane. I don’t want to go to school. I don’t want to go back to Minnesota. I just want to turn around, walk out, and call a cab to go home.
But, in the midst of all my internal resistance, I am constantly reminding myself of this one thing: I have a very big God who is always by my side. He is faithful and He loves me.
I’ve even gotten into the habit over the past hour or so of reciting that in my mind whenever I start to feel mopey or depressed. I stop whatever I’m doing, close my eyes, and say it again: I have a very big God who is always by my side. He is faithful and He loves me.
I think that sometimes it’s important for us to take our thoughts captive. Sure, there’s something to be said for processing a situation and allowing yourself to feel your emotions, but then there are times when we need to tell ourselves how we’re going to respond. For instance, instead of feeling a certain way because that’s what our “normal” or natural response is, sometimes we need to say to ourselves “Morgan (insert your own name here), you need a new perspective”.
We need to start speaking truth over ourselves and our situations. We need to allow truth to dictate our response to situations rather than our circumstances. For, as the famous saying goes, the truth will set you free.
Random thoughts from my brain to yours on this beautiful Tuesday morning.