For those of you who have not yet heard, I guess now would be the time to publicly release my earth-shaking, reality-altering news:
I am quitting college.
I can hear your loud gasps of shock, confusion, and slight disappointment from here. No, this is not a joke – this is not a drill – it’s true.
Starting in just two short months, you can start calling me “dropout” or “failure” or whatever other names come to mind. 😉
I think the hardest thing about making this decision was not the fact that I would no longer be receiving a degree, that I would be leaving Minnesota, or that I would have to say “see you later” to some great friends… No, the hardest part about making this decision was the realization that not many people would understand it, and learning to cope with how they would respond.
Because I’m a bit of a people pleaser by nature, it’s very difficult for me to make decisions that I know will leave some people feeling let-down or disappointed. But in this case? Totally and completely worth it.
Let me back this bus up a little bit…
Why am I leaving? Honestly, it’s been a long time coming, but the short answer is this: I was not made to fit into the college mold. I am far from normal. I never have been, and I surely never will be. And, while I am more than okay with it, this means that I have never (and will never) fit into the “normal” cycle of society.
Graduate high school, go to college, graduate college, get a regular job, get married, have kids, and then pay for your kids to go to high school, graduate, head off to college, get a job, get married, have kids, and then they pay for their kids to go to high school, graduate… Seriously, this cycle could go on forever. It is normality at its finest and, if you know anything about me, then you know that I can’t stand the idea of normal.
“Once in a while it really hits people that they don’t have to experience the world in the way they have been told.” – Alan Keightley.
I’m not saying that college is entirely useless or a total waste of time, and it is not my intention to inspire all of my friends to quit with me, but I do want to give you something to think about. Side Note: the following question that I’m going to ask you to ask yourself is for everyone, not just college kids. Ready? Here we go.
I want you to ask yourself this question: was I made for normal or was I made for something more?
Pretty mind-boggling when you stop to think about the answer, isn’t it?
Well, I can’t tell you what the answer to that question will be for you. Maybe you were created (or even called) to fit into normal. Maybe normal is something you love, something that you thrive on, and something that is going to satisfy your heart. Maybe normal is normal for you and that’s not a bad thing.
But for me? I don’t fit in with normal. I don’t fit into the vicious cycle.
I am one of the dreamers. I was born to create. The desire of my heart is to change the world and to allow my experiences in it to change me. I want to be a writer. I want to make music and worship the Lord. I want to spend my time, energy, and money on the people I love. I don’t want to waste my time just barely surviving in some academic institution – I want to thrive in the freedom that comes with embracing who I am and who I was created to be.
So, yes – the rumours are true. I am going to be a college drop-out. I am going to be a failure. I am going to get a lot of confused looks from those who simply cannot comprehend my decision. And you know what? That’s okay. Because at the end of the day, what really matters to me is the peace that comes from pursuing the dreams that God has placed in my heart. What really matters to me is the pursuit of the extraordinary, and I would encourage you to take a good look at your own life and maybe even do the same.
So what do you think? Is quitting college worth the pursuit of your dreams? I would love to hear your thoughts in the comments below!